The ocean
the sunrise,
the sand after walking so many miles, a
pitstop
I'm sitting lonely.
I lost my companion not so long ago.
My eyes burn. My chest stings. I
never told him of the way some times I feel
I cannot breathe without crying, but I
manage this. I always do, but
he is gone now and I cannot tell him
of how he's what kept me
from this act, this act, this act will
push me back from reality [which I am
currently stationed] again and
all of these thoughts will leave, the day will be
what he considered happier, what I am considering
unbearable
For the time being.
I hate the way the waves keep moving,
sloshing, groaning boats to the shore without occupants
My insides make this same motion
How does the sand keep sparkling
through a loss such as this? How
will the world live without him?
No one knew. No one will.
He was my orphan and my everything.
I took care of him.
How can the sand keep fucking glistening?
Eyes closed now.
Breathe now.
My world will not go on and this is the last bout of reality I will ever receive and I know this without vengance and without hate for the above.
My pages have been ruined. Faulted.
My knee bones are bruised and I can't breathe without crying
and I cannot take baby steps without the stinging pinches, but
I do not want to end-
I will work backwards to face this sea again and I will not relapse
when I think of him, I will
keep walking to the buildings so far away and I
will survive that world without falling,
alone.
But eyes cut me.
The last sentences you breathed had wounded me
deeper than I can explain because I knew, then,
this would be the end. You told me it would rain today.
It had to, and it will.
The sand's starting to fill and I should probably go on.
They are staring at me like I am an apparition.
A dirty ghost of a girl.
The trees hum for me to stay and know secrets.
Like I will never see nor speak of palm trees again.
Like the blood on my hands is not my own [nor his because
he was my own]
And they scream as I walk away
as if to chase me northward, as if to say
good.
bye.















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hold on to me darling, I've got nowhere else to go...
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