I will always say, think, feel, and write things
that I wish I did not say, think, feel, and write.
I will always have bouts of self annoyance because I will always
think of things in the wrong context;
I will always rearrange everything in my head so that
I never have to think of the important subject at hand;
instead I will think of bedsheets, curtains, floorboards, tree limbs,...
and so many other things that make no sense.
Even to myself.
I will always have occasional insomnia and I will always
think I am going to lose my mind when I do.
I will always have dreams and feelings [hopefully] that warn me and scream
when I am doing something wrong or
when something is going wrong that I don't know about or
when something is about to go wrong.
I will always be incredibly able to tell who people are.
Except myself...
long gone day
